You'll have to excuse the following. I get hit with random waves of depression sometimes. Not the bi-polar kind, I just kind of start thinking too much. Big problem of mine, I can't seem to get out of my own head.

There's a popular saying "You're never alone, because no matter where you go, there you are." That's all well and good, except when you just want to get away from yourself. I'm the one person I can never seem to ignore.

And the worst part is that no one is going to read this. One person reads my little journal here, and it's my mother. I'm glad to be on really good terms with my mother, and she's one of my closest friends, but there's still something pathetic about it. I'm a nerd, sure, but still.

I don't have the money to 'go out' with friends or anything, I don't really have the effort to actively look for a relationship, and I really don't have a lot of time to pursue one, anyway. Right now, everything is focused on school. Then it'll all focus on getting and keeping a job in this career I've chosen. Maybe once I start to make a little income, maybe then I'll be able to get some more friends, and possibly a girlfriend.

Or maybe not, who knows. And that as they say is that... enough whining for the night.